I was between moments of time when I saw before my eyes the disaster that was going to happen and being just a hand’s reach too far from actually stopping anything. But seeing what I saw and knowing what I know about falls, my son would need major comfort after this crash. Our son began …
When I was pregnant with our Baby Boy, I was asked how I “revealed” my pregnancy to Jonathan, to our family, and to friends. When I tell them I called my husband at work and said, “Well, I took a pregnancy test. Do you want to know what it said?” People are a little disheartened …
The whole weekend turned into a train wreck. Unfortunate event after unfortunate event happened, and I just about shrugged my shoulders– daring any feeling to surface–because I just KNEW these events would happen this way. I believed the worst because this is what I told myself to expect. And because I believed the lie, I …
A simple yet terrifying conflict of tug of war. A battle of withholding against giving. A juxtaposition of my head, my heart, and my decisions. Each entity of my life creating a web of actions that become signposts, reminding myself of what can happen in the fire when I believe I am alone. The choices …
Life is a series of mountains and valleys, of highs and lows, of being told, “it’s happening” and then being told, “not right now.” And although I would love to tiptoe from mountaintop to mountaintop, I can’t deny that in my lowest moments, God does His best work in and through me. Being completely unraveled …
Tired. Overlooked. Staring aimlessly as the days drag on or fly by. Is anybody listening? Is anybody watching you, beloved mama? Sometimes internally screaming. Sometimes saddened and disheartened. Oftentimes feeling abandoned and lonely. Confined to a playroom watching the kids in their freedom laugh joyfully. Shameful thoughts wandering in the darkness, blindly searching for the …
After celebrating one whole year postpartum (whoa), I feel like I am walking out of some type of fog. I look behind me at the months that have so quickly passed, not recognizing myself from those first few craaaaazy months as a new mom. From blindly surfing the emotional high to low to high waves, …
“Haaaaaappy biiiiirthdaaay to youuuuuuuuu,” we finished singing to my son on his BIG one-year birthday. I looked at all the smiling faces of our family wishing my son a happy birthday from a computer screen. My son’s first birthday was “celebrated,” but not in the way that I had hoped or imagined. Baby Boy’s one-year …
The CoronaVirus has put the majority of the world in isolation. As this virus seems to currently rule our world, we draw near to those inside our current quarters (willingly or unwillingly), quarantined like animals in a zoo. Life is awkward. And we determine the best steps to live, work, play as well as cope …
Exasperation hit the fan, and let’s just say, {stuff} got real…fast. My usually accommodating self could no longer contain my frustration. The culprit? Changing my son’s diaper. You know you need a break when a diaper change makes steam come out of your ears. The diaper change had been always been a playful feud, but …
